I need inspiration ...

[linndechir]

Arrrrrrrrrgh! I've rarely been so frustrated because of my writing. I really want to work on Kindred Spirits because my Artemis/Zak-love is stronger than ever (can't get them out of my head, it's scary), but Drizzt is killing me ... I just don't know how to write him in such a warped, insane situation, and keep him in character. I've never been very interested in Drizzt, I just don't know him as well as I do Artemis, Zak, or any other drow. I don't want any character bashing, despite the fact that I don't like Drizzt, but I want a realistic, convincing portrayal of his character with all his faults, and there are a lot of them. How should he react when he meets, at the same time, his arch-enemy, a man he hates and who has tried to kill him countless times, AND his father whom he loves and who was dead for decades? Especially since it becomes clear very quickly that those two men actually like each other (although Drizzt doesn't know yet to what extent ... *dirty grin*). It's driving me crazy. And even if I manage to write that scene, what will happen afterwards? Drizzt and Zak both think they love each other, and they're hoping for a happy father-son-relationship ... except that there is no way they could get along. Zak won't understand Drizzt's opinions, his principles, his way of life, his choice of friends ... and Drizzt will have to realise that his father is not the shining hero he wants to remember, but a definitely "evil", unstable, dominant and quite intolerant drow who has much more in common with Entreri than with Drizzt. Sure, the love a father feels for his son, and a son for his father, can help a lot, but it won't really make them understand each other. It's simply hopeless.
*sigh* Somehow this made me feel better. It didn't really help, though. Kimmuriel, Rai'gy, Berg'inyon and Jarlaxle together were easier to write than Drizzt in this story.

Comments

[evoe.livejournal.com]

I guess Drizzt might be so desperate as to actually try to convince himself that maybe Zak is being a "good" influence, that he brings out what little good remains in Entreri... at least until he is forced to realize that this is in no way true ;)

[linndechir.livejournal.com]

*grin* You're right, I was thinking about that, too. But I doubt that Drizzt will come up with that idea when they first meet. He'll be too shocked, and he'll need some time to rationalise first. Until then he'll probably think that evil Entreri is using his father. (Poor helpless Zaknafein ...)

[evoe.livejournal.com]

Maybe he'll think about it like one of those brief partnerships he had with Entreri, when they fought together to escape some common enemies. He'd just need a small reason to come to that kind of conclusion... but I guess that impression wouldn't last very long either. *Sigh* Well I can certainly see the difficulty there! Anyway, I'm going to bed. Good night :)

[linndechir.livejournal.com]

Yes. Well, one day I'll manage. The question is just when. I'll probably keep annoying about this tomorrow. *grin* Good night. ^^