Hope? Not yet ...

[linndechir]

Even if I had liked Drizzt so far I would hate him now ... I should stop whining, though. I think that the next KS-chapter is slowly getting acceptable, and I've accepted the fact that it will never be good. Prepare for a big disappointment, dear readers ... the chapter you've all been waiting for will be the worst of the whole story. But by now I think that it is be better to accept that, get it done, and move on, rather than spend another three months on it without making it any better. I'm pretty sure that the following chapters will be better. They can't be worse.

Unfortunately, my beta reader currently has a big computer problem (i.e. she has no computer), and I have no idea when she will be back. So I'm not really sure what to do ... I definitely need a native speaker to save me (and the readers) from the horrors of the stupid mistakes I sometimes make. Damn.

And in addition to all that, I'm getting increasingly frustrated with my own lethargy. For the past months I've been incapable of reading anything, and that even started before I dropped out of my course. I've started reading a lot of very different books, and no matter what I read I always lose interest after a while and stop reading. It's horrible. I finally have the time to read, and I have a bunch of great books at home ... and I can't bring myself to read them. I can't understand how that happened to a bookworm like me. Damn. Again.

Oh. I thought I should stop whining, not start ... Sorry.

Comments

[zigsternenstaub.livejournal.com]

Most likely people won't be nearly as disappointed in this chapter as you believe they will be. If you've put even a fraction of the thought into it that seems you have, I'm sure that it will be at least satisfactory.

As for the lethargy...you're probably depressed, which is understandable given recent developments in your life, such as as giving up your study in Paris, moving back in with parents, etc. Loss of interest in things that you usually love to do is also a very clear sign of clinical depression. You might want to see a councellor.

[linndechir.livejournal.com]

I guess you're right. Or rather, I hope ... ;)

I didn't have to move back in with my parents, I'm living with my brother (which has all the advantages of living alone, but I can go and see him when I feel alone ;)). I guess if I had to live with my parents I would be very depressed. Nah, seriously, I just don't want to spend a lot of money just to talk to some councellor about my problems, especially since nobody knows if it would be any help or just a waste of time and money.