University, fanfic ranting and the usual writer's block

[linndechir]

Oh no. Four months of freedom have come to an end. My classes started again today. So far it was okay, nothing too remarkable. I am really curious what my other classes and teachers will be like. But then again, even the horrible teachers are usually nice and not too demanding in the first week, so I'll just have to wait and see. More detailed updates on my classes next week, I guess. I'm kinda nervous, and - worse - I know that I'll have a hard time adjusting to university again. At least I only have to get up early once a week. Since I am not a morning person at all ... that's a good thing. ;) And I suppose it's also important that I finally get back to university again. I was really happy these past few months, but I'm also getting increasingly frustrated with myself. I had so much free time, and I didn't do anything. I didn't read much, I hardly wrote anything at all, I didn't start to take piano and tango lessons again like I had intended (but I will ... hopefully). Strangely enough, I only do these things when I don't have the time to do them. When I have free time, I'm lazy. When I'm stressed, I get creative. So ... with a bit of luck there might be a fanfic update in the next weeks, now that I don't have much free time anymore. ;)

I really want to write the next KS-chapter, but except for a lot of the obligatory Artemis/Zak-fluff, I'm still not sure how to continue right now. More angsting for Drizzt and Zak? Sure, but I don't want to focus too much on Drizzt's point of view. So what am I supposed to do? Write Drizzt angst from Artemis' point of view? Or Zak's? Might just be interesting ... because Drizzt angst alone is unbearable. I'm also seriously considering bringing Kimmuriel and Rai'gy back into the story. Everything is going too smooth right now. And sooner or later I'll have to give Artemis and Zak something to argue about ... i.e. the fact that Artemis hates Menzo and that Zak hates the surface. Which is slightly annoying if they want to live together. ;) But I just don't know how to do all of this, and in what order ... Gna, it's frustrating. I'm open for suggestions, if you have any. ^^
My ongoing, extremely disturbing Star Wars infatuation eating up what little bit of creativity I have at the moment is not helping. At least I won't ever be tempted to write any Qui/Obi - there are (fortunately) so many fics about them that I feel like everything has already been written, and every fic I could possibly write would probably be stealing ideas from at least three other fics at the same time. So I just waste my time reading about them. ;) Unfortunately, though, another pairing has crept into my mind ... And there are virtually no Dooku/Qui fics, it's unbelievable. A couple of gen fics about them, and the few slashy fics that exist are really weird and insane, in a bad way (at least the ones I've found so far. maybe I just haven't found the good stuff yet). The poor guys are almost as neglected as Artemis and Zak. Ah, the temptation ... *sigh* But knowing my own laziness, I probably won't write anything about those two either, just as I still haven't even started to write any Rose of the Prophet slash. I definitely need someone to kick my ass and make me write again. Any volunteers? Because I really feel like those two deserve a good, slashy, part fluffy and part angsty fic (and I mean the good kind of angst, not a simple "omfg Dooku is soooo evil he does bad things to his poor lil padawan!"). Yeah. Because they are fluffy. You don't believe me? Most people would probably argue that Artemis/Zak or Gromph/Dantrag aren't fluffy either ... Well, they're all wrong. Strangely enough, it's the tough guys who can get really fluffy if you let them. Again, I mean the good kind of fluff. ;) I'm not making any sense to anyone but myself, am I? I really need to get my ideas straight if I want to write something. I'm just insanely in love with that pairing right now. I apologise for the rant.

Oh, and the really really good news. I FINALLY finished that horrible translation I had to do. 100 pages with the probably most boring text I ever read, and I had to translate it from German to French. It took a lot of time to do it because every page was a real pain. But it's finally done, and now I only have to think of the money I will get. And as much as I hated doing it ... I don't regret it, thinking of all the stuff I will be able to afford now. Not sure what I'm going to do yet, but I have no doubts that I will find something to spend the money on. ;)

Comments

Dadada...

[http://www.openidfrance.fr/erfea (from livejournal.com)]

Well, I apologize first for the possible mistakes I am going to do in that comment, because I am not used to writing in English except on MSN or when I write a dissertation, two circumstances that are, to a slight extent, very different.
Actually, I think I do not need to introduce myself, even if you don't know my pseudonym. I was your neighbour for about a year, in two different classrooms. Moreover, the fact that somebody forbid me to use "'ll" or "can't" will surely help you to recognize me. Please, if I forget a "s" to the third singular person of the present, don't tell it to Mr Monjou, or else he will rape me :'(.
WHAT? I should be re-re-re-reading my lessons, my books, all that stuff, because the "con-cours" begins in three days? I think I should stop writing right now, go buy some Red Bull, and not sleep until next Monday. Oh well, I guess somebody else is already doing that for me^^.

Now that I have said such nonsense for three paragraphs, I can begin my comment.
I am glad to know that you are coming back to university, because the Protestant ethos that was incorporated in me during the prépa told me that I should not consider those who do not work, because that means they will not give my money back when I lent some money to them.
Did you believe me?
Actually, since I am not only Weberian but Durkheimian (as every good B/L), I am also glad for you because I know you won't commit suicide. The explanations for the fact that you didn't have "creativity" during those months resolves around one word : "anomie" (anomia? anomy? I am too lazy to check it in the dictionary that is just behind me).
So welcome back in the wonderful world of socialization. Go make real life friends, if you see what I mean:p.

Well, concerning your fanfics, I cannot say anything, I have not read it. But if you look to the Extended Universe, and especially to "The Heir of the Empire" trilogy (by Timothy Zahn), you could try something with Luke and Brakiss :p. ^^ Yes, I am so much a geek that I have even read books from the Extended Universe. The "X-Wings" series (about the Rogue Squadron) with Corran Horn is also a bit fun. I learnt in the third book (or was it the fourth? I don't remember) the way the machine used to torture Solo in the Empire Strikes Back worked. Now I understand better that these were not simple electric shocks in the eyes, lol. I can assure you that this was just for scientific investigations (after all, I don't think that anybody else except the worse Star Wars geeks know the number of people an Imperial Star Destroyers Requires to function optimally... 100 000 actually).

Oh, and I paste here the link for the series we spoke about the last time I saw you (Code Geass). You can watch it if you want. The hero has a lot of funny demonic laughs. And there is already a lot of "yaoi" about it...
[url]http://www.sky-animes.com/index.php?file=Download&op=categorie&cat=343[/url].

I think that is all. So I hope to see you soon on MSN or (why not?) in reality (if you come to Paris for instance :p). Even if for me, reality looks a little bit like the world of the Sand Snake in Beetlejuice.

And remember, the Force will be with you, always.

P.S : I would like to precise that my pseudonym is not "Erfea" but "Erfëa", which makes a big difference. Its meaning is just an emo stereotype, but when I was younger, I was not as perfect as I am today :p.