Nervous rambling and the end of the writer's block

[linndechir]

Yay! I just finished the first draft of the Dooku/Qui-Gon fic I've been working on. It's a pretty long one-shot, it really reads like a one-shot, but somehow it's just screaming "I need a sequel!" That doesn't matter for the moment, though, first I want to finish this story before I think about a sequel. New fandoms are just incredibly difficult to write, and they make you wrack your brains over every piece of dialogue and every gesture because you don't feel entirely familiar with the characters yet. Every sentence makes you think, "Is this in character? Would he do that? Would he say that? Would he use these words to say it?" Not to mention that I agonised over writing the smut scene, as usual. But most of the work is done, and I don't think it's all that bad. Still needs some more work, though. And a beta reader who can give me some objective feedback. Because I'm so taken with the pairing on one hand, and completely paranoid and insecure about my writing on the other. Not quite sure whom I should ask. Mhm. I'm excited. I'm always excited when something I've written is slowly reaching completion. I'm excited and nervous and I want to ask everyone I know what they think about it because I'm scared of posting it. I always feel like that, and a new fandom just makes me more nervous. Argh.

For those of you who want to hit me right now because I'm "cheating" on my fandom ... Don't worry, I finally have an idea for the next KS-chapter (and the worst thing is, it wasn't even my idea ... how I love all those people who listen to my fanfic babbling and give me ideas ^^). I'm not sure yet how exactly it will work out, but I'm finally motivated again to continue writing. Once my one-shot is done, KS will have me back for the next chapter. Promised.

So. I just had to get this off my chest, because I really spent the past days completely obsessing over this story, and it's always such a relief to have a first version. It makes you feel like the story itself is finished and all you need to do is some revising. Conveniently forgetting that revising is just as difficult. ;) And now that I've stolen some of your time I'm finally going to do my homework for my boring translation class tomorrow. ;)

Comments

[linndechir.livejournal.com]

I thought you did, but maybe I was stupid and forgot to save the new one on my phone. Mhm, weird. Anyway, I'm probably going to watch the X-Men trilogy with a couple of friends Friday night, and I asked you if you wanted to come.

[evoe.livejournal.com]

Yep :) Friday sounds great. Should I get some of the movies? I can take two free of charge...

[linndechir.livejournal.com]

No need to, I've got all of them, but thanks. I don't know yet when exactly we are going to meet, probably around 6 pm or something. Maybe you could send me an e-mail or sms with your new number again, just in case?