NEIN NEIN NEIN NEIN NEIN!!!!!

[linndechir]

This is getting fucking frustrating! Everyone around me is posting their Hanukkah fics, and my stupid fic still refuses to get written. Even the first draft isn't finished, because whenever I try to work on it, it gets more fucked up. First, I made the participating characters even more insane than they already are. Then, I decided to use flashbacks - I HATE flashbacks, I've never written any because I hate reading them, but my brainless fic idea only works with flashbacks. And as if all that wasn't bad enough, one of my characters suddenly started quoting Hegel. WHAT THE FUCK??? I'm not even writing about Landa, for God's sake! I'm starting to think that I should delete the whole thing and start anew, but I have honestly no better idea for the prompt I was given than the one I'm using now. It's actually a good idea, I think, except that it's so weird that it only makes sense in my brain, but not when I write it. Whatever, I'll just pretend my lack of sense and clarity is artistic and mysterious and complex. Or something. I just want to write something better than pointless porn with the pairing and the kinks my giftee asked for. :(
The worst thing is that I waited so long to write this because when I came up with this idea weeks ago, I was sure that I could easily write it down in two days, and voilà. But, no, everything always turns out to be ten times more complicated.
Why the fuck is he quoting Hegel? Seriously, Hegel? In bed? Not even IB characters should be so fucked up that they start lecturing their partner on philosophy and freedom during sex. *smashes head against the wall*

Comments

[linndechir.livejournal.com]

I could, but I think the same problem would occur again. :(

True, true, but it's not Landa. I don't want to say who it is, because I don't want to reveal who I'm writing about and in what situation, but I can tell you that it's not Landa. So there's no excuse. ;)

[linndechir.livejournal.com]

I hate flashbacks. *cries* They sound stupid, and pretentious, and ugly, and they fuck up the best story. But for some reason my brain keeps insisting on them.

Maybe I should introduce Landa into the story! That would solve all problems. ;)