NEIN NEIN NEIN NEIN NEIN!!!!!

[linndechir]

This is getting fucking frustrating! Everyone around me is posting their Hanukkah fics, and my stupid fic still refuses to get written. Even the first draft isn't finished, because whenever I try to work on it, it gets more fucked up. First, I made the participating characters even more insane than they already are. Then, I decided to use flashbacks - I HATE flashbacks, I've never written any because I hate reading them, but my brainless fic idea only works with flashbacks. And as if all that wasn't bad enough, one of my characters suddenly started quoting Hegel. WHAT THE FUCK??? I'm not even writing about Landa, for God's sake! I'm starting to think that I should delete the whole thing and start anew, but I have honestly no better idea for the prompt I was given than the one I'm using now. It's actually a good idea, I think, except that it's so weird that it only makes sense in my brain, but not when I write it. Whatever, I'll just pretend my lack of sense and clarity is artistic and mysterious and complex. Or something. I just want to write something better than pointless porn with the pairing and the kinks my giftee asked for. :(
The worst thing is that I waited so long to write this because when I came up with this idea weeks ago, I was sure that I could easily write it down in two days, and voilà. But, no, everything always turns out to be ten times more complicated.
Why the fuck is he quoting Hegel? Seriously, Hegel? In bed? Not even IB characters should be so fucked up that they start lecturing their partner on philosophy and freedom during sex. *smashes head against the wall*

Comments

[linndechir.livejournal.com]

Yay, thanks for the encouragement! :D
What's GIS? I'm a bit behind on your current job updates. I hope you'll find time to read my stuff anyway. :) Real life is a bitch in general. Will you be going home for Christmas and New Year?

[evoe.livejournal.com]

Yup I'll be going home on Tuesday. But only for christmas, for new years I'll be back in berlin.
GIS stands for Geographic Information System by the way. Today we were doing some georeferencing... not terribly exciting but still okay. The teacher is nice, so it's all bearable despite the early start. It's a bit depressing though to see that half the people there are in the same situation I'm in: Freshly finished with Uni but unable to find a job. Well I'll be signing a contract for a parttime job in the Hausverwaltung soon, so I'll have my basic costs of living covered without running to the JobCenter for each and every little thing.

[linndechir.livejournal.com]

Ah. Any plans for New Year already?
Ist das da so eine Art Fortbildung, oder wie muss man sich das vorstellen? And yay for having at least a part-time job for the basics. *hugs*

[evoe.livejournal.com]

Nö keine Pläne so far. Außer viel Alkohol trinken und mich freuen, dass dieses blöde Jahr endlich vorbei ist. The next one can only be better!
Ja ist ne Fortbildung. Von so nem Bildungscenter. Die haben ne ganze Menge Kurse.
Hehe ist doch schön wenn man nur 20 Std die Woche arbeiten muss um dann netto auf Studentenniveau zu leben :)

[linndechir.livejournal.com]

Das ist die richtige Einstellung. :D
Okay, und wie lange geht die Fortbildung?
stimmt auch wieder. ^^ Arbeitest du dann an drei Tagen pro Woche oder jeden Tag nur vier Stunden oder sowas?

[evoe.livejournal.com]

Fortbildung geht noch bis Ende Januar. Aber ab nächste Woche sind da erstmal Ferien. Bis Anfang Januar. Nett wa :)
Naja denke mal ich arbeite generell zwei Tage acht und einen Tag vier stunden, aber ich schätze das kann man bei Bedarf auch recht flexibel gestalten.

[linndechir.livejournal.com]

Ferien! Immer gut. :)
I see. Ist ja wenigstens etwas, auch wenn's nicht ideal ist.

[evoe.livejournal.com]

Ja, werde nebenbei auch noch nach anderen Sachen ausschau halten. Freie Mitarbeit in Büros usw. Hoffe das klappt besser als die Bewerbungen bisher.

[linndechir.livejournal.com]

Ich drück dir die Daumen. :)

[evoe.livejournal.com]

Merci :)